Just sitting here working and catching up with clients. I have been blessed. The midnight mission came to the rescue. I was going downhill fast and the new housing director at SRO Housing corporation wasn't going to help me.. He wanted me out because he was afraid he might be blogged about for being mean to the poor. A friend of mine was harassed by him. A disabled senior who had been living at SRO for over 18 years. She kept calling me when I was having problems with an infection and I never got back to her. She had gotten a 30 days to quit. I believe that what was happening was a purge of those of us who are influential in the community. SO it is. He told on himself when he told me he didn't want to be perceived as being mean to the poor.
Anyway. I am taking my medication consistently , the thyroid medicine , the medicine for the control of the diabetes , and the zoloft. The midnight mission has me in their transitional program and I am recuperating on my own terms and even have chores. I think it is great! I tried to do 6 hours a day of chores 5 days a week , but that didn't work out, I got fatigued so they have allowed me to only do 3 hours. I will start again tomorrow washing dishes . I requested this. It helps me with my humility and keeps me humble, plus how can you not build up a karma bank when you are serving your neighbors.
I feel so selfish because I haven't gotten my business into overdrive and god knows what fall out is coming next from the debacle at SRO Housing Corporation? But I have to get this business going so I can get people to work. When my clients find out how easy it is to maintain their own websites they get excited. But it is a free way to put food on people's table if I can get my business up and running. I feel like I need to learn more to show this concept, but those I have shown are using the cms successfully.
I am eating better. The Midnight Mission for me is like heaven at breakfast etc because Lot's of the things they put out for us to eat are salads and organic items such as soy milk and other organic food stuffs. It is great!!!! I feel like I am living in a temple. It is only temporary, but it is allowing me the opportunity to listen and talk to those who are being helped by the Midnight Mission's program. I am amazed at the dedicationof many of the participants . They are truly working on their recovery. My recovery is a bit different. I have to take my medications consistently and that way I don't wind up with things like happened at SRO happening. There was much more to the problem . The environment was not conducive to my well being and when you don't use drugs and are known to hang with the LAPD those who are selling and using in the hotel don't want you around, so it is easy to find people willing to testify against you when you do wrong Or have a moment when your medications are affected by over the counter medicines. But I feel like it was providence because where I am now I have clean air to breathe and people who care about me and they are monitoring my medications. I am even getting counseling. I have a heater that works right and in the summer will have air conditioning. I will recuperate and not go out of this world like a punk.
ONE of the problems ,I think, and I am very sure of is that I lost my spirituality. The Midnight Mission is a secular organization but they allow for the spiritual aspect of your life to be a part of your recovery. My recovery involves making sure I take my medications and look out for my physical and psychological challenges. Others have other challenges. It was the social model that helped me to accept that I had a physical and emotional illness in the past when I would take friends of mine to recovery meetings because of their battle with addiction. A disease is a disease.
I have to get this business going and put people to work. But my self-confidence is my weakness.
I am going to watch Fringe tonight and watch LOST on ABC Tomorrow on my LCD HDTV.
Some posts I am about to remove from this blog and apologize to those. I now know that the house I was living in was constantly full of the carbon monoxide coming from 5th street. I would clean the soot off of the walls and the next day the soot was on the walls again. It even got into the restroom. The hydraulics for the elevator was directly underneath my room and the elevator shaft was also next to my room. God only knows what fumes were in my room from the hydraulics for the elevator. I also now have sunlight coming into my room. I am so happy right now because I know that where I am right now is where I am supposed to be.
TO Monica of the Nickel Diner I have to say I am sorry. To Ed Fuentes I have to also apologize. My judgment was affected by those fumes. I can't believe how horrible I was.
I won't apologize to Jaime Green because his behavior is reprehensible. I will be removing the posts that I wrote about Monica and Ed Fuentes, although the damage is done. I should have left that room when I could. Seeing how the James Wood is being built and knowing how the heating system in the Southern Hotel doesn't work, although there will be air conditioning at the James Wood, I don't trust SRO to build anything that works, so I knew even if I could have moved in there, there would be problems. Plus , I need to be where I will be looked after and also where I am wanted. The Midnight Mission is awesome. There it is ok to be clean from drugs etc and there isn't a lot of paranoia like there was at the Southern Hotel. I feel accepted and am always invited to recovery meetings and to be honest , though I don't suffer with the drugs or alcohol, the CA and NA , and AA meetings do speak to me and my physical and emotional challenges.
I am so grateful to have friends who care about me and want to see me succeed and because of this I am feeling the inspiration in myself to also succeed instead of die in a little room on 5th street in a place that would eventually cook me and my neighbors during a very bad heat wave and or kill me because of all of the fumes from the busses. I know, dramatic, but it wa a second floor room. In a higher room I may have not had the exhaust problem.
I am going to live and it will be because of the Midnight Mission and my wanting to.
Anyway. I am taking my medication consistently , the thyroid medicine , the medicine for the control of the diabetes , and the zoloft. The midnight mission has me in their transitional program and I am recuperating on my own terms and even have chores. I think it is great! I tried to do 6 hours a day of chores 5 days a week , but that didn't work out, I got fatigued so they have allowed me to only do 3 hours. I will start again tomorrow washing dishes . I requested this. It helps me with my humility and keeps me humble, plus how can you not build up a karma bank when you are serving your neighbors.
I feel so selfish because I haven't gotten my business into overdrive and god knows what fall out is coming next from the debacle at SRO Housing Corporation? But I have to get this business going so I can get people to work. When my clients find out how easy it is to maintain their own websites they get excited. But it is a free way to put food on people's table if I can get my business up and running. I feel like I need to learn more to show this concept, but those I have shown are using the cms successfully.
I am eating better. The Midnight Mission for me is like heaven at breakfast etc because Lot's of the things they put out for us to eat are salads and organic items such as soy milk and other organic food stuffs. It is great!!!! I feel like I am living in a temple. It is only temporary, but it is allowing me the opportunity to listen and talk to those who are being helped by the Midnight Mission's program. I am amazed at the dedicationof many of the participants . They are truly working on their recovery. My recovery is a bit different. I have to take my medications consistently and that way I don't wind up with things like happened at SRO happening. There was much more to the problem . The environment was not conducive to my well being and when you don't use drugs and are known to hang with the LAPD those who are selling and using in the hotel don't want you around, so it is easy to find people willing to testify against you when you do wrong Or have a moment when your medications are affected by over the counter medicines. But I feel like it was providence because where I am now I have clean air to breathe and people who care about me and they are monitoring my medications. I am even getting counseling. I have a heater that works right and in the summer will have air conditioning. I will recuperate and not go out of this world like a punk.
ONE of the problems ,I think, and I am very sure of is that I lost my spirituality. The Midnight Mission is a secular organization but they allow for the spiritual aspect of your life to be a part of your recovery. My recovery involves making sure I take my medications and look out for my physical and psychological challenges. Others have other challenges. It was the social model that helped me to accept that I had a physical and emotional illness in the past when I would take friends of mine to recovery meetings because of their battle with addiction. A disease is a disease.
I have to get this business going and put people to work. But my self-confidence is my weakness.
I am going to watch Fringe tonight and watch LOST on ABC Tomorrow on my LCD HDTV.
Some posts I am about to remove from this blog and apologize to those. I now know that the house I was living in was constantly full of the carbon monoxide coming from 5th street. I would clean the soot off of the walls and the next day the soot was on the walls again. It even got into the restroom. The hydraulics for the elevator was directly underneath my room and the elevator shaft was also next to my room. God only knows what fumes were in my room from the hydraulics for the elevator. I also now have sunlight coming into my room. I am so happy right now because I know that where I am right now is where I am supposed to be.
TO Monica of the Nickel Diner I have to say I am sorry. To Ed Fuentes I have to also apologize. My judgment was affected by those fumes. I can't believe how horrible I was.
I won't apologize to Jaime Green because his behavior is reprehensible. I will be removing the posts that I wrote about Monica and Ed Fuentes, although the damage is done. I should have left that room when I could. Seeing how the James Wood is being built and knowing how the heating system in the Southern Hotel doesn't work, although there will be air conditioning at the James Wood, I don't trust SRO to build anything that works, so I knew even if I could have moved in there, there would be problems. Plus , I need to be where I will be looked after and also where I am wanted. The Midnight Mission is awesome. There it is ok to be clean from drugs etc and there isn't a lot of paranoia like there was at the Southern Hotel. I feel accepted and am always invited to recovery meetings and to be honest , though I don't suffer with the drugs or alcohol, the CA and NA , and AA meetings do speak to me and my physical and emotional challenges.
I am so grateful to have friends who care about me and want to see me succeed and because of this I am feeling the inspiration in myself to also succeed instead of die in a little room on 5th street in a place that would eventually cook me and my neighbors during a very bad heat wave and or kill me because of all of the fumes from the busses. I know, dramatic, but it wa a second floor room. In a higher room I may have not had the exhaust problem.
I am going to live and it will be because of the Midnight Mission and my wanting to.
Comments
Hooray! I knew you wouldn't be knocked down for long. Thanks for posting, Don. You've been in my best thoughts. I can hardly wait to tell Ruby that you're back!
Joe