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Power and control issues

I wonder sometimes why people are so insecure that they have to throw their weight around to prove to themselves that they have worht. It has been interesting observing such a person and person's where I am living at as they continue to express those personality disorders that they have as a result of their addictive personalities. Power and control seem to be a theme in their personalities. If they feel that they can not control a situation or someone they will do everything in their power to remove that threat to their ego...

Just the other day someone tried to get my goat..... it was interesting as it was a set up. He was ready with his cell phone and as he yelled and screamed and hollered at me in the dining room that he was in control and I should do what he said , he knew that I wasn't going to back down from him.. thus one of the people serving the food , who was in his case management , he made sure to tell him that he could not feed me.... to show to everyone that he was in control.... There are lot's of mind games being played, you see one of the reaon's i never wanted to go into a homeless shelter is because people with diasabilities have a tenency to be picked at by those who have to do different things ... they resent the fact you arne't carrying your own weight.. so they find ways of pickng at even the case managment.... come on, throw in addictive personalities toegether in one place, case managers and clients alike and you get some mad games.... I wonder how much the clients have to do with their resentments that I am in a different program than they are and feed the case manager little side comments about that....

You know. I am really debating whether I should focus on helping a place where they have someone who chooses to bully people , just because he can. I tried it at SRO with looking beyond the negligence they perpetrated against sick and disabled tenants and I just couldn't do it, I am wondering if I should just go ahead and count my losses and forget about this place , if they choose to allow someone to bully clients into submission....

He uses the excuse that many people do not have discipline and thus need to have that thrust upon them... bullying is bullying and no matter what, you can't convince me otherwise. I hope this person keeps their distance from me.... I don't have time to play his passive aggressive bullshit games... it is power and control... to be honest.... there is more to it and it is a personal issue with him... he has given out all of the hints....homophobia, his disgust at himself for being overweight and his outright attacks against me.... he has issues big time, and it looks like they could be pathological.... I mean he has pretty much told on himself...

I don't know ... should I even bother to continue to support an organization that allows someone in that position to continue to play those stupid games...

Here ia a person, who gets apycheck at a homeless shelter , telling one of his clients, not to feed someone who has been a supporter and also pays for the service as part of the program, because I didn not want to waste food.... it seems to me that something is terribly wrong with that picture.... HE is completley out of contro..... I am grateful for the option to be here, but watching how this person is so irked and so obsessed because he can't tell me what to do, well that is just plain sick... I am not in his program.....why is he so obsessed with me? God I hope he doesn't like me in a sexual way, that would be groce, but he isn't the only one.. there is another person who also doesn't like the fact that he can't tell me what to do..... these are the problems we face when facing those who have come thorugh the addiction process....

Who knows, couple of more credits and I wil have my psychology degree and it makes for a great book...

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